IT STARTED WITH MUSHROOMS :)

2012. well That is the first time I have had to write that down on paper for the very last few moments of the year I was tripping on mushrooms and for the first few moments of the year I was still tripping pretty hard. I had a great time hanging with a small group of friends and just having a good ole time. Nothing too crazy, just a few mushrooms and a few shots and bam… it was a party. We did aa lil practice run the night before and that went well so for the new year we stepped it up a notch and really had some fun. Somehow we made it back to my place late that night and kept the party going all the next day with a bottle of Jameson. This was a great thing because we were out of the public eye and in the safety of my own home. It took all of yesterday to recover and get back to real life but it was all very much worth it. My roommate made her amazing home made chicken noodle soup and we just vegged out the day away on the couch watching movies and smoking pot… I swear it works every tiem after a long escapade of craziness.

I cant say I really made any new years revolutions, but I do have a few goal in mind. I am thinking about going to school maybe. I kinda want to find a place to move out to on my own. I feel like I have had a roommate all my life and for once I would like to see how well I can handle things on my own. I am thinking that this year I want to try to get out more and do me things. I spend a lot of time working and sometimes I feel like it is lil overwhelming. On constant call is not easy and in this line of work, that is how it is. of coarse I want to be able to budget better and save more just like any other american out there. I want to do the gym better and really start taking better care of my body all around. I do realize this will mean cutting back even more on the Liquor and I am okay with that. My progress so far has been great and I feel like with the right encouragement I can be awesome!

Needless to say my house is a lil wrecked from all the commotion that has been going on around here, so today I will be cleaning again. I am excited to get everything put away and just relax one more day before this crazy year really kicks in. Maybe tonight after I get everything all cleaned up and organized again I will cook a yummy dinner and just kick it with my romie for a change. I can tell you one thing… I am not getting out of this bed until I am super stoned and fully satisfied if you know what I mean ( wink wink ) hehe hope you all have a great day and an even more awesome year!

DREAMS OF BEING A TERRORIST

Now I know this is going to sound really strange to you all, but lately I have had dreams of being a Terrorist. okay, I guess I should say that in my dream I am a terrorist. whatever, any way… It starts out with me just doing things my normal way. Get up, go to work, cook dinners, take showers, you know… the usual. Well, later in the dream I find myself having these weird meetings with all kinds of weird people. Sometimes my brother is there and usually my closest friend that I travel with and watch Baseball games with is there, sometimes my cats are there and even MO was in last nights dream. In my dream when we are all together we are talking with wet tissue paper stuffed into our mouth. I guess we do that so no one can understand what we are saying. We never actually do anything Terrorist like, we just know as a group that each of us are, well, Terrorists. It is all very strange and I have a perfectly normal explanation for all of it~

The last day I was at my moms house in Louisville, Superman and I snuggled up on her couch and watched the show HOMELAND from start to finish. We watched something like 10 episodes back to back all in one day. Once I saw the first one I was hooked. I had never even heard of the show before but It is really really good. I love criminal mysteries like that. I used to watch the Unit and Criminal Minds a lot before American Horror Story came on. Its funny because just the day before I was super sad that AMHS just wrapped up there first season. I cant believe I have to wait 6 whole months to see what happens next, I didn’t know what I was going to do! I didn’t know until I saw Homeland that is.

I find it strange that I liked the show so much that I even think about it in my dreams. I am not and never will have any kind of Terrorist bone in my body!!!! I think I should just say that but I do like the show enough to incorporate it into my dreams! If you haven’t seen the show the you should type the name into your google bar and watch the trailer. If you are like me and like suspenseful TV that incorporates danger in a likely day to day situation, then you will love this show as I did. Sometimes I think that my dreams are so graphic because the material I watch on TV and now I know for sure that there is a direct link to the two. I guess today as I clean my place I will throw some Disney movies in to lighten the mode in my sleep a little. hehe well anyway, hope you all have a great day. Today I will be scrubbing flores and waxing tables and then tomorrow it is back to work. Vacation is over and though New Years is upon us, I am still focused on getting shit done. So on that note, Holla!!! time to get to it. Carpe Diem

THE REASON I WENT M.I.A….

hey peeps!!! Im back I just want to say that I am aware that I have been gone for a while and I am sorry, but I had to get things into perspective. I feel like Christmas is the craziest time of the year for me and this time it was even more intense. In the past getting home to my family with lots of great gifts was my only concern. No matter where I am or what I am doing, I always make sure to make it home for the holidays. My holidays started early with decorating the house for the dinner party I threw with some friends. All the shopping for my family was done online and then I just ran out and got fun stuff for my girls here in the neighborhood. The party was a hit, the presents were perfect and then it was time to fly home and do it all over again, only this time I was bringing superman along. As if going home to see the family doesn’t add stress, now I am heightening the stress by 100 %. At first I wasn’t nervous at all about it. Superman is so great and so fantastic that I just knew he would love my family and that they would love him too. It wasn’t till we landed in my home town did I start to get nervous.

My mom was the first one he met and they hit if off immediately. Thank god she was there to pick us up… she was able to make him feel comfortable and relaxed. The next few days we spent introducing him to each of my family members one at a time. It was important to me that he had the chance to at least meat everyone once before our Christmas dinner. I was thinking that if he could get that behind him, then things wouldn’t be so awkward at dinner. My plain must have really worked because dinner was a huge success and everyone got along great! Watching him with my family was by far the best Christmas gift I have ever gotten! As I am sure all you big brothers out there understand that your little baby sister means a lot to you. It is already hard enough for my brothers and family to deal with what I do for a living and even more difficult to accept a man who met me as Charley. To them I am a whole other person and with Superman I am that girl as well. It just makes me happy for my family to know where his love is coming from, and even more important to know that I have their approval

The reason I went M.I.A was because I was wrapped up in my real life. Suddenly it hit me that I needed to devote some time to letting my loved ones know that I am still little ole me, and Christmas seemed like the perfect time to do it I have spent the last few weeks not even looking at twitter, my blog, or anything at all that has anything to do with my job. I feel so refreshed. I was starting to feel a little caged in there for a little while and my breath of fresh air has me feeling great! I am home now and am going to be spending all of today with my little buddies in my quiet empty home all by myself. I feel a chick flick coming on in my near future accompanied by a joint and a cold glass of MIO flavored water. aaahhh home sweet home. I hope your alls holiday was as great as mine. kisses!

PRE CHRISTMAS PARTY AND QUELF

Last night was so much fun! It all started out with what was suppose be a girls christmas present exchange party. Cece (my roommate) and I made so much food!! Okay, lets say we prepared so much food rather, it was all stuff that was just heat up snacks but it was equally delicious. Sausages, pizza, cheese and crackers, meatballs, zucchini, salsa and chips, spinach stuffed pastries, and home made fudge and caramel. It was all so good, the meatballs were a super hit, im actually kinda craving them right now! Any way, we ate food and exchanged gifts with just us girls… we all had shots and we smoked a little pot all together for the first time in a while, it was nice. As soon as we wrapped up all the presents and girl stuff a bunch of our friends showed up and helped us eat all the food and drink all the liquor. we played this amazing game called Quelf and laughed our asses off! the game has so much crazy rules and crazy fun ways to win. We played this game at Thanks Giving and it was a hit so we knew it would be perfect for christmas too. I won again!! just wanted to throw that in there:) The night ended with a lot of empty liquor bottles and drunk passed out people. My bedroom looks like a war zone from all the craziness and lucky me gets to spend the rest of today cleaning it all up:) hehe my bed is shredded from what I guess was amazing sex, i was a lil drunk It took me an entire blunt to get me back to life this morning. now I am gonna eat and shower and pack for my trip home. Thought you all would like to check out some pics so here ya go. :) just keep in mind we were playing a crazy crazy game.

FROM SOUTH DAKOTA TO SNOWBOARDING

o man, I had a great time In SUX FALLS South Dakota… You all are all so super nice. the moment I got there I had a shot of Jameson to warm me up… it is like -2 degrees there!!! I got to the first store and Tara Lynn Fox was there already waiting and ready to start the day. We had a great turn out of fans all day long, it was fantastic. It seems that everyone there had the most beautiful eyes. I swear that everyone has this awesome sparkle in there wildly blue or green eyes, very cool! any way, a few of our guest were a lil shy at first but the most of them were excited and very thankful for us to be there. In the first hours of the day it was a lot of local factory men taking breaks and the lunch rush was a line to the door. Later in the afternoon we got a moment to kick back and hang with a few fans in the back and smoke some pot. We were so exhausted from interacting with so many people all day that the blunts were exactly what we needed. You should have seen us, we were a trip. there were like 6 of us jammed packed into this little sports car in the freezing cold weather… I wish I had a picture, it was a sight to see. The next day was a lot like the same stuff except later that night!! We got super down with the fans at Wilies I think it is called. I struggled a lot with that damn name all weekend, but whatever it is called, we had a blast. We must have taken a million shots that night with any and everyone who bought us one. We danced the night away with those who came to see us and we again found ourselves smoking pot in the parking lot with more fans. It was a super fun and super successful trip!

The moment I got home from the fun, I ordered Pho and came straight home to catch up on the missed American Horror Story on my couch. Superman came over and we snuggled the night away. Some point in the middle of the night I woke up to find him almost already inside me, it was so hott! The next afternoon he and I went to watch my JETS win then I had to get home to pack. My roommate and I headed out that afternoon to Big Bear mountain for a few days of SNOWBOARDING! For the first trip of the season, It was fantastic! I fell pretty hard the first run, but after that, I was on it. We boarded all day and drank ate all night long, it was the perfect get away. Starting the second morning, I was a little sore, But it was all very much worth it. The drive home that night was quick and very rewording because it brought me back to my amazing bed where my body was more than massaged inside and out I posted a few pictures of the trip here for you all… The board is new and I loved it, but yeah….

I spent the rest of the week working and catching up on sleep soI am sry for the delay on the post, but here ya go! I am home for an hour or so to watch the newest american Horror Story yet again I love that show then it is off for a day of grooming and shopping hope you all have a great weekend!

NO CONCUSSIONS THIS YEAR!

God I can’t wait!!! Today my snowboard is suposta to be coming in the mail and I plain on sitting by my door till it happens. I have been thinking about this day all week long and I just want it to hold in my hands and have as my very first board. I ordered it on Thanks Giving as a way of thanking myself for all the cooking I did that day. I jammed packed my weeks since then with work and time with friends so I can stay distracted. I did however, get so excited one night that I just had to book my first weekend at Big Bear Mountain trip of the season. Please believe that by this time on monday morning I will be a good 3 or 4 runs deep, god I cant wait!!! With my board I will have everything I need to escape to any hill at any point and just board away!

Today I will be catching up on some PUBA stuff and a lil bit of christmas shopping as well then it is off to South Dakota for two days of fun at a few of the local stores. Me and Tegan Summers I believe will be super chilling together. I have to fly home saturday and work as soon as I land but come sunday I am Big Bear Bound. Me and My room mate are going just us two, so I will have plenty of time to get back to my center. I am so thankful I have been working out because I know this shit will get me winded. So for now, I am going to get my already been laid this morning, ass out of my amazing bed and into the kitchen to make some pancakes for me and my gal then smoke as I wait patiently for my board. I plain on trying on all my gear from last year just to make sure it all still fits and maybe even get every thing all packed up for the trip. that way when I get home I can chill for the night before the fun. Don’t worry thought!!!, I will be bringing the helmet so there will be no concussions this year!

THE HONEY MOON IS OVER!!!

We all have to be adults at some point. Some how I have lost sight of the difference between the important things, and personal want. I feel like I have been sucked into some kind of hole that I could sink nor swim in, just a completely unproductive state of being. Ever since superman came into my life, I just haven’t been the same girl I used to be. In some ways this is a good thing. I am no longer hanging out at the bars and I am not getting in nearly as much trouble with the law. But this has brought a few bad things too…. I am not as current on my blogs, I don’t get hardly any “ME” time and I am not taking on the maximum amount of work I could be; basically I am loosing money and time… things that are hard to get back. I realize that nothing in life worth having comes easy, but what happens when it threatens you very way of life? How are you supposed to find a happy balance between work, your man, and your friends? My room mate tells me all the time that I am spending too much time with my guy and that I am loosing touch with the rest of our friends. She also said that eventually we will all loose friends as we grow up and older but when is it okay to start eliminating your friends? Seems like something I should have a little more control over.

Superman is great and I love spending time with him, I just wish he would be okay with me spending time with my girls too… and myself for that matter. I NEED to start a few projects for my website that I have had on the back burner because I am constantly trying to accommodate for making him comfortable and calm. Recently he started drinking some to help with his troubled thoughts of me at work, but that is NOT working for him or me. Here I am trying to drink less and he wants to drink more… Not good. After this weekends disastrous activities I really feel like I am bringing him down. The honey moon is over thats for sure. We were cool when we first met, then we were great when we got to know each other, then things were so awesome once we were official and now it seems as if we are declining, It is like we reached a peak. I have aways said that there is just as much bad for all the good. I am always kinda weary when things get too good, I just know that a dose of bad is on the way. Right now I feel like that is exactly what is going on, we are taking on the dose of bad. All our problems are caused from my job. He hates it go figure… I keep telling him that I had this job WAY before he came along and that I wont be able todo this forever! He tells me he understands and that he will be able to hang in there, but then hours later he brings it up again. It is exhausting and frustrating!

Yesterday he and I took a time out from the real world. It was not my idea, but he really needed it to kinda find himself again. The reason I liked him so much is because he was strong and comforting to me, he was a man’s man…. This last week I was the strong one who was comforting him. I know relationships are give and take so I stuck it out, but I cant do this long. I can only do what I know is secure for my future… I am not in the position to be dropping jobs for some boys happiness when it just adds more stress onto me. I have a goal in this industry to be debt free and walk away with have accomplished some kind of grown up activity. The day I am debt free and everything is all payed off, then yes I can focus on another career move, but for now this is the way I have chosen to accomplish my goal. You can consider this a mission statement if you want I am back to the old hard working me and I cant wait! I am making a movie through PUBA and I cant wait to get that to you all, I know you will love it. Today I plain on doing some much needed snuggling with my little guys as I get work done on the computer, then i have a job to be at around 1. It is TUESDAY… the perfect day to turn things back around and keep moving forward!!!

BACK TO THE GYM

SOOOO much food from the Holidays! I feel like I have gained back everything I worked so hard to lose over the last few weeks… I am a lil sad that my super tight tummy is gone again. I will have a lot of making up to do. I am not really on a mission to lose weight, I really just want to have a tight tummy… that is my only goal really! today I am hitting the gym, then it is time to engage in what I like to call camera ready activities. Nalis, tan, massage, waxing, you know… girl stuff! hehe anyway I am not going to draw this one out too long! It is Tuesday Morning and I have been laid twice today already so I have nothing to complain about.. Im stoned already, Ive eaten, im thinking about masturbating one good time, then I guess I can get up and out into the world! I hope you all have a great day! holla back baby

THANKS GIVING 2011

well it was quite the success! I mean, I have eaten so much food over the las few days, I could probably not eat for the next year and I would be okay The day started with an early morning round of sex then I was up and in the kitchen making breakfast for a a small intimate get together with my girl friends and our boys, it was nice. Mimosas, good food, our guys, some candles… it truly was a great way to start the day. After breakfast we had a few joints, watched some football a prepared the turkey. It was a super big one… hehe well, it was 19 pounds but it was plenty big for us. I then spent the rest of the afternoon cooking away. I made 16 different dishes for the dinner. By the time I was done I had and entire buffet set up along the counter. I managed to get it all done just int he nick of time… The turkey was ready and guest were arriving. I had my first round of dinner at like 430 then again a little bit more each time another round of guest would show up. Each guest brought a different kind of liquor and thank god for that because the shots were the only thing helping me stay up. I had so much turkey and food that I put myself in a food coma!

Once the shots started pouring thats when the blunts and joints started popping up. We busted out this game called Quelf and it was absolutely awesome. It is a game that is just awesome If it were any other night we would have made a drinking game out of it, but we were all lucky to be awake from all the food. I mean, dont get me wrong… we were drinking, but with all that food in us it would have taken BOTTLES to get us drunk. We played all evening long and every one had a blast. Superman was there and he did great! He and I were team mate and we WON. well, I think It is a lil unclear in the end but I am pretty sure we won! He was such a god sport the whole night and he got along with every one way better than I ever imagined. I fucked him all night long for that. It turned me on so much to see him play it cool, The sex was my way of saying thanks hehe I sure was feeling giving thats for sure

the next day he and I headed out to his parents in Santa Cruz for the weekend. I turned my phone off and I didn’t get on line, It was just me and him and his family, it was nice. I got to see where he grew up and meet his friends and eat at his favorite restaurants. We super bonded over this vacation and I don’t just mean so by our pelvic parts we did manage to fuck all weekend long tho. His parents have a trailer out in the back that we stayed in, so it was kinda like we were camping. I could have swore we were going to tip the damn thing over, but some how it is still standing! We didn’t want to leave, but the real world is un escapable so we had to get back. I slept till noon then finally made it to my living room to write this for you fine people. Now I plain on catching up with my real world and getting back into the grove of things. I dont work till tomorrow so I am just kind of kicking it today. Well anyway, I have some picture here from the holiday. I am sry I was unable to stream live, My equipment was dawn but hopefully the pictures will tell the story just fine. I hope every one had a great holiday and I an even better holiday weekend

READY AND SET… WAITING ON GO

Well I am all set for the big feast tomorrow! You all should have seen me preparing for this day, I was up to mu elbows in cook books and recipes for days. It took me a day to figure out what I wanted to serve, then it took me a day of finding the perfect way to make each item and then it took me a day to shop for it all. I have everything plained out so I can make sure not to screw anything up, I HOPE. I have my house all fixed and clean, fresh seasonal flowers every where, new candles in place and even a new game for us to play after the food is all gone and the liquor starts being poured.

It is going to be a super intense day for me. I am starting around 7:30 am preparing and cooking for the mimosa party I am having with a few close girl friends. I make a breakfast casserole that is to die for and serving it with fruit and mimosas. I figure this will give us fuel and energy for the all day cooking affair that will be going down in my kitchen. Next I will prep all the fresh food I have for all 16 dishes I have selected for Dinner. I am so thankful that I have My room mate and some girl friends coming to help! We are going to be very busy little bees all day long. I have told my guest they can start arriving some time around 4 and all they have to bring are boos, deserts, and/or pot… Everything else I got I figure we will eat around 5… lil football action… some drinks… board games and desert a lil later followed by a fun night of hanging with some close friends! Sounds like a great thanks giving to me!

The best part about the whole thing is that it will be LIVE right here at Charleychase.com…. prob up until the liquor starts disappearing though I am sure the mot entertaining part will be when we are all good and drunk, but unfortunately I am not really allowed to film that. You can catch me and the girls as we catch up, giggle, cook, drink, and you can check out all my guests as they all pile in throughout the day. Plus, you can interact with me and maybe throw a few of your Thanks Giving Secret’s my way through the live chat option

Any way… I am ready and set, I am just waiting on go time tomorrow morning. o and one more thing… I plain on smoking SSSOOO much pot tomorrow all day long so I can tear down some Thanks Giving dinner hehe just a lil side note Hope you all have a safe and fun turkey day! MUAH!!!