Browsing all articles from September, 2011.

DREAMS OF BEING A TERRORIST

Now I know this is going to sound really strange to you all, but lately I have had dreams of being a Terrorist. okay, I guess I should say that in my dream I am a terrorist. whatever, any way… It starts out with me just doing things my normal way. Get up, go to work, cook dinners, take showers, you know… the usual. Well, later in the dream I find myself having these weird meetings with all kinds of weird people. Sometimes my brother is there and usually my closest friend that I travel with and watch Baseball games with is there, sometimes my cats are there and even MO was in last nights dream. In my dream when we are all together we are talking with wet tissue paper stuffed into our mouth. I guess we do that so no one can understand what we are saying. We never actually do anything Terrorist like, we just know as a group that each of us are, well, Terrorists. It is all very strange and I have a perfectly normal explanation for all of it~

The last day I was at my moms house in Louisville, Superman and I snuggled up on her couch and watched the show HOMELAND from start to finish. We watched something like 10 episodes back to back all in one day. Once I saw the first one I was hooked. I had never even heard of the show before but It is really really good. I love criminal mysteries like that. I used to watch the Unit and Criminal Minds a lot before American Horror Story came on. Its funny because just the day before I was super sad that AMHS just wrapped up there first season. I cant believe I have to wait 6 whole months to see what happens next, I didn’t know what I was going to do! I didn’t know until I saw Homeland that is.

I find it strange that I liked the show so much that I even think about it in my dreams. I am not and never will have any kind of Terrorist bone in my body!!!! I think I should just say that but I do like the show enough to incorporate it into my dreams! If you haven’t seen the show the you should type the name into your google bar and watch the trailer. If you are like me and like suspenseful TV that incorporates danger in a likely day to day situation, then you will love this show as I did. Sometimes I think that my dreams are so graphic because the material I watch on TV and now I know for sure that there is a direct link to the two. I guess today as I clean my place I will throw some Disney movies in to lighten the mode in my sleep a little. hehe well anyway, hope you all have a great day. Today I will be scrubbing flores and waxing tables and then tomorrow it is back to work. Vacation is over and though New Years is upon us, I am still focused on getting shit done. So on that note, Holla!!! time to get to it. Carpe Diem

THE REASON I WENT M.I.A….

hey peeps!!! Im back I just want to say that I am aware that I have been gone for a while and I am sorry, but I had to get things into perspective. I feel like Christmas is the craziest time of the year for me and this time it was even more intense. In the past getting home to my family with lots of great gifts was my only concern. No matter where I am or what I am doing, I always make sure to make it home for the holidays. My holidays started early with decorating the house for the dinner party I threw with some friends. All the shopping for my family was done online and then I just ran out and got fun stuff for my girls here in the neighborhood. The party was a hit, the presents were perfect and then it was time to fly home and do it all over again, only this time I was bringing superman along. As if going home to see the family doesn’t add stress, now I am heightening the stress by 100 %. At first I wasn’t nervous at all about it. Superman is so great and so fantastic that I just knew he would love my family and that they would love him too. It wasn’t till we landed in my home town did I start to get nervous.

My mom was the first one he met and they hit if off immediately. Thank god she was there to pick us up… she was able to make him feel comfortable and relaxed. The next few days we spent introducing him to each of my family members one at a time. It was important to me that he had the chance to at least meat everyone once before our Christmas dinner. I was thinking that if he could get that behind him, then things wouldn’t be so awkward at dinner. My plain must have really worked because dinner was a huge success and everyone got along great! Watching him with my family was by far the best Christmas gift I have ever gotten! As I am sure all you big brothers out there understand that your little baby sister means a lot to you. It is already hard enough for my brothers and family to deal with what I do for a living and even more difficult to accept a man who met me as Charley. To them I am a whole other person and with Superman I am that girl as well. It just makes me happy for my family to know where his love is coming from, and even more important to know that I have their approval

The reason I went M.I.A was because I was wrapped up in my real life. Suddenly it hit me that I needed to devote some time to letting my loved ones know that I am still little ole me, and Christmas seemed like the perfect time to do it I have spent the last few weeks not even looking at twitter, my blog, or anything at all that has anything to do with my job. I feel so refreshed. I was starting to feel a little caged in there for a little while and my breath of fresh air has me feeling great! I am home now and am going to be spending all of today with my little buddies in my quiet empty home all by myself. I feel a chick flick coming on in my near future accompanied by a joint and a cold glass of MIO flavored water. aaahhh home sweet home. I hope your alls holiday was as great as mine. kisses!

PRE CHRISTMAS PARTY AND QUELF

Last night was so much fun! It all started out with what was suppose be a girls christmas present exchange party. Cece (my roommate) and I made so much food!! Okay, lets say we prepared so much food rather, it was all stuff that was just heat up snacks but it was equally delicious. Sausages, pizza, cheese and crackers, meatballs, zucchini, salsa and chips, spinach stuffed pastries, and home made fudge and caramel. It was all so good, the meatballs were a super hit, im actually kinda craving them right now! Any way, we ate food and exchanged gifts with just us girls… we all had shots and we smoked a little pot all together for the first time in a while, it was nice. As soon as we wrapped up all the presents and girl stuff a bunch of our friends showed up and helped us eat all the food and drink all the liquor. we played this amazing game called Quelf and laughed our asses off! the game has so much crazy rules and crazy fun ways to win. We played this game at Thanks Giving and it was a hit so we knew it would be perfect for christmas too. I won again!! just wanted to throw that in there:) The night ended with a lot of empty liquor bottles and drunk passed out people. My bedroom looks like a war zone from all the craziness and lucky me gets to spend the rest of today cleaning it all up:) hehe my bed is shredded from what I guess was amazing sex, i was a lil drunk It took me an entire blunt to get me back to life this morning. now I am gonna eat and shower and pack for my trip home. Thought you all would like to check out some pics so here ya go. :) just keep in mind we were playing a crazy crazy game.

FROM SOUTH DAKOTA TO SNOWBOARDING

o man, I had a great time In SUX FALLS South Dakota… You all are all so super nice. the moment I got there I had a shot of Jameson to warm me up… it is like -2 degrees there!!! I got to the first store and Tara Lynn Fox was there already waiting and ready to start the day. We had a great turn out of fans all day long, it was fantastic. It seems that everyone there had the most beautiful eyes. I swear that everyone has this awesome sparkle in there wildly blue or green eyes, very cool! any way, a few of our guest were a lil shy at first but the most of them were excited and very thankful for us to be there. In the first hours of the day it was a lot of local factory men taking breaks and the lunch rush was a line to the door. Later in the afternoon we got a moment to kick back and hang with a few fans in the back and smoke some pot. We were so exhausted from interacting with so many people all day that the blunts were exactly what we needed. You should have seen us, we were a trip. there were like 6 of us jammed packed into this little sports car in the freezing cold weather… I wish I had a picture, it was a sight to see. The next day was a lot like the same stuff except later that night!! We got super down with the fans at Wilies I think it is called. I struggled a lot with that damn name all weekend, but whatever it is called, we had a blast. We must have taken a million shots that night with any and everyone who bought us one. We danced the night away with those who came to see us and we again found ourselves smoking pot in the parking lot with more fans. It was a super fun and super successful trip!

The moment I got home from the fun, I ordered Pho and came straight home to catch up on the missed American Horror Story on my couch. Superman came over and we snuggled the night away. Some point in the middle of the night I woke up to find him almost already inside me, it was so hott! The next afternoon he and I went to watch my JETS win then I had to get home to pack. My roommate and I headed out that afternoon to Big Bear mountain for a few days of SNOWBOARDING! For the first trip of the season, It was fantastic! I fell pretty hard the first run, but after that, I was on it. We boarded all day and drank ate all night long, it was the perfect get away. Starting the second morning, I was a little sore, But it was all very much worth it. The drive home that night was quick and very rewording because it brought me back to my amazing bed where my body was more than massaged inside and out I posted a few pictures of the trip here for you all… The board is new and I loved it, but yeah….

I spent the rest of the week working and catching up on sleep soI am sry for the delay on the post, but here ya go! I am home for an hour or so to watch the newest american Horror Story yet again I love that show then it is off for a day of grooming and shopping hope you all have a great weekend!

NO CONCUSSIONS THIS YEAR!

God I can’t wait!!! Today my snowboard is suposta to be coming in the mail and I plain on sitting by my door till it happens. I have been thinking about this day all week long and I just want it to hold in my hands and have as my very first board. I ordered it on Thanks Giving as a way of thanking myself for all the cooking I did that day. I jammed packed my weeks since then with work and time with friends so I can stay distracted. I did however, get so excited one night that I just had to book my first weekend at Big Bear Mountain trip of the season. Please believe that by this time on monday morning I will be a good 3 or 4 runs deep, god I cant wait!!! With my board I will have everything I need to escape to any hill at any point and just board away!

Today I will be catching up on some PUBA stuff and a lil bit of christmas shopping as well then it is off to South Dakota for two days of fun at a few of the local stores. Me and Tegan Summers I believe will be super chilling together. I have to fly home saturday and work as soon as I land but come sunday I am Big Bear Bound. Me and My room mate are going just us two, so I will have plenty of time to get back to my center. I am so thankful I have been working out because I know this shit will get me winded. So for now, I am going to get my already been laid this morning, ass out of my amazing bed and into the kitchen to make some pancakes for me and my gal then smoke as I wait patiently for my board. I plain on trying on all my gear from last year just to make sure it all still fits and maybe even get every thing all packed up for the trip. that way when I get home I can chill for the night before the fun. Don’t worry thought!!!, I will be bringing the helmet so there will be no concussions this year!

THE HONEY MOON IS OVER!!!

We all have to be adults at some point. Some how I have lost sight of the difference between the important things, and personal want. I feel like I have been sucked into some kind of hole that I could sink nor swim in, just a completely unproductive state of being. Ever since superman came into my life, I just haven’t been the same girl I used to be. In some ways this is a good thing. I am no longer hanging out at the bars and I am not getting in nearly as much trouble with the law. But this has brought a few bad things too…. I am not as current on my blogs, I don’t get hardly any “ME” time and I am not taking on the maximum amount of work I could be; basically I am loosing money and time… things that are hard to get back. I realize that nothing in life worth having comes easy, but what happens when it threatens you very way of life? How are you supposed to find a happy balance between work, your man, and your friends? My room mate tells me all the time that I am spending too much time with my guy and that I am loosing touch with the rest of our friends. She also said that eventually we will all loose friends as we grow up and older but when is it okay to start eliminating your friends? Seems like something I should have a little more control over.

Superman is great and I love spending time with him, I just wish he would be okay with me spending time with my girls too… and myself for that matter. I NEED to start a few projects for my website that I have had on the back burner because I am constantly trying to accommodate for making him comfortable and calm. Recently he started drinking some to help with his troubled thoughts of me at work, but that is NOT working for him or me. Here I am trying to drink less and he wants to drink more… Not good. After this weekends disastrous activities I really feel like I am bringing him down. The honey moon is over thats for sure. We were cool when we first met, then we were great when we got to know each other, then things were so awesome once we were official and now it seems as if we are declining, It is like we reached a peak. I have aways said that there is just as much bad for all the good. I am always kinda weary when things get too good, I just know that a dose of bad is on the way. Right now I feel like that is exactly what is going on, we are taking on the dose of bad. All our problems are caused from my job. He hates it go figure… I keep telling him that I had this job WAY before he came along and that I wont be able todo this forever! He tells me he understands and that he will be able to hang in there, but then hours later he brings it up again. It is exhausting and frustrating!

Yesterday he and I took a time out from the real world. It was not my idea, but he really needed it to kinda find himself again. The reason I liked him so much is because he was strong and comforting to me, he was a man’s man…. This last week I was the strong one who was comforting him. I know relationships are give and take so I stuck it out, but I cant do this long. I can only do what I know is secure for my future… I am not in the position to be dropping jobs for some boys happiness when it just adds more stress onto me. I have a goal in this industry to be debt free and walk away with have accomplished some kind of grown up activity. The day I am debt free and everything is all payed off, then yes I can focus on another career move, but for now this is the way I have chosen to accomplish my goal. You can consider this a mission statement if you want I am back to the old hard working me and I cant wait! I am making a movie through PUBA and I cant wait to get that to you all, I know you will love it. Today I plain on doing some much needed snuggling with my little guys as I get work done on the computer, then i have a job to be at around 1. It is TUESDAY… the perfect day to turn things back around and keep moving forward!!!