Browsing all articles from September, 2011.

BACK TO THE GYM

SOOOO much food from the Holidays! I feel like I have gained back everything I worked so hard to lose over the last few weeks… I am a lil sad that my super tight tummy is gone again. I will have a lot of making up to do. I am not really on a mission to lose weight, I really just want to have a tight tummy… that is my only goal really! today I am hitting the gym, then it is time to engage in what I like to call camera ready activities. Nalis, tan, massage, waxing, you know… girl stuff! hehe anyway I am not going to draw this one out too long! It is Tuesday Morning and I have been laid twice today already so I have nothing to complain about.. Im stoned already, Ive eaten, im thinking about masturbating one good time, then I guess I can get up and out into the world! I hope you all have a great day! holla back baby

THANKS GIVING 2011

well it was quite the success! I mean, I have eaten so much food over the las few days, I could probably not eat for the next year and I would be okay The day started with an early morning round of sex then I was up and in the kitchen making breakfast for a a small intimate get together with my girl friends and our boys, it was nice. Mimosas, good food, our guys, some candles… it truly was a great way to start the day. After breakfast we had a few joints, watched some football a prepared the turkey. It was a super big one… hehe well, it was 19 pounds but it was plenty big for us. I then spent the rest of the afternoon cooking away. I made 16 different dishes for the dinner. By the time I was done I had and entire buffet set up along the counter. I managed to get it all done just int he nick of time… The turkey was ready and guest were arriving. I had my first round of dinner at like 430 then again a little bit more each time another round of guest would show up. Each guest brought a different kind of liquor and thank god for that because the shots were the only thing helping me stay up. I had so much turkey and food that I put myself in a food coma!

Once the shots started pouring thats when the blunts and joints started popping up. We busted out this game called Quelf and it was absolutely awesome. It is a game that is just awesome If it were any other night we would have made a drinking game out of it, but we were all lucky to be awake from all the food. I mean, dont get me wrong… we were drinking, but with all that food in us it would have taken BOTTLES to get us drunk. We played all evening long and every one had a blast. Superman was there and he did great! He and I were team mate and we WON. well, I think It is a lil unclear in the end but I am pretty sure we won! He was such a god sport the whole night and he got along with every one way better than I ever imagined. I fucked him all night long for that. It turned me on so much to see him play it cool, The sex was my way of saying thanks hehe I sure was feeling giving thats for sure

the next day he and I headed out to his parents in Santa Cruz for the weekend. I turned my phone off and I didn’t get on line, It was just me and him and his family, it was nice. I got to see where he grew up and meet his friends and eat at his favorite restaurants. We super bonded over this vacation and I don’t just mean so by our pelvic parts we did manage to fuck all weekend long tho. His parents have a trailer out in the back that we stayed in, so it was kinda like we were camping. I could have swore we were going to tip the damn thing over, but some how it is still standing! We didn’t want to leave, but the real world is un escapable so we had to get back. I slept till noon then finally made it to my living room to write this for you fine people. Now I plain on catching up with my real world and getting back into the grove of things. I dont work till tomorrow so I am just kind of kicking it today. Well anyway, I have some picture here from the holiday. I am sry I was unable to stream live, My equipment was dawn but hopefully the pictures will tell the story just fine. I hope every one had a great holiday and I an even better holiday weekend

READY AND SET… WAITING ON GO

Well I am all set for the big feast tomorrow! You all should have seen me preparing for this day, I was up to mu elbows in cook books and recipes for days. It took me a day to figure out what I wanted to serve, then it took me a day of finding the perfect way to make each item and then it took me a day to shop for it all. I have everything plained out so I can make sure not to screw anything up, I HOPE. I have my house all fixed and clean, fresh seasonal flowers every where, new candles in place and even a new game for us to play after the food is all gone and the liquor starts being poured.

It is going to be a super intense day for me. I am starting around 7:30 am preparing and cooking for the mimosa party I am having with a few close girl friends. I make a breakfast casserole that is to die for and serving it with fruit and mimosas. I figure this will give us fuel and energy for the all day cooking affair that will be going down in my kitchen. Next I will prep all the fresh food I have for all 16 dishes I have selected for Dinner. I am so thankful that I have My room mate and some girl friends coming to help! We are going to be very busy little bees all day long. I have told my guest they can start arriving some time around 4 and all they have to bring are boos, deserts, and/or pot… Everything else I got I figure we will eat around 5… lil football action… some drinks… board games and desert a lil later followed by a fun night of hanging with some close friends! Sounds like a great thanks giving to me!

The best part about the whole thing is that it will be LIVE right here at Charleychase.com…. prob up until the liquor starts disappearing though I am sure the mot entertaining part will be when we are all good and drunk, but unfortunately I am not really allowed to film that. You can catch me and the girls as we catch up, giggle, cook, drink, and you can check out all my guests as they all pile in throughout the day. Plus, you can interact with me and maybe throw a few of your Thanks Giving Secret’s my way through the live chat option

Any way… I am ready and set, I am just waiting on go time tomorrow morning. o and one more thing… I plain on smoking SSSOOO much pot tomorrow all day long so I can tear down some Thanks Giving dinner hehe just a lil side note Hope you all have a safe and fun turkey day! MUAH!!!

YOUR INVITED TO SPEND THANKS GIVING AT MY HOUSE!

ITS here! ITS here! Thanks Giving is finally here! I do love this holiday, hehe… this is my time to showcase my cooking skills. Each year Cece and I have joint forces and laid out a spectacular spread for some friends to enjoy with us. Each year more and more people stop by to get some, so this year I will be making twice the amount of food. We serve mostly a traditional meal with a few original recipes as well. This year I have decided to cook all day naked and I will be showing it LIVE here at Charleychase.com… I thought it would be cool to let you all into my newly decorated and designed apartment to catch the behind the scenes of making Thanks Giving Dinner. Of coarse the naked part is a lil something I added just to spice things up a bit. It should be pretty cool. Me and Cece will be cooking, our friends will be stopping by for some food… we will b smoking and drinking all day with who ever stops by and I am sure the wii will be busted out at some point as well. We are expecting quite a few of our industry friends to stop by and get crazy with us too, so I just know you all will love it. If you are unable to catch the fun Live that day, the entire episode will be archived at CharleyChase.com too. Please feel free to stop in and hang with us. We can talk all day long as I cook and maybe you all can do some helping out around here too hehe

As excited as I am about this day, I am super nervous too. I am nervous about superman meeting more of my friends. At first he was fine, like when we first met and I took him to Mr Lay It Down’s house for a party. He did great there, but now every time I take him around my friends, he gets super quiet and rude almost. I am constantly having to defend him by ensuring people that he is just shy and awkward with people he doesn’t know. But if you don’t spark conversation with people, then they will always be strangers! He doesn’t even hardly talk to me either. He just stands there in the corner all quiet and waits for someone to approach him. We are SOOOO opposite in this way. I love people, and I love crowds and I love bullshit small talk with strangers but I feel like he gets jealous when I do that. Especially if it is a guy, omg, forget about it! He later asks me if I have fucked that person and if I was hitting on them and if I like them… just stupid insecure bull shit questions that only result in him either insulting me or my friends. I understand that it may be hard to date a girl in the industry who fucks a different dude every day, but in all fairness, he knew this about me long before our first date! Considering that most of the people that are coming to my Thanks Giving dinner I have had sex with, I can for see us getting into yet another argument about my job. But the thing is, that they have all fucked each other too. I mean, it is not like I am the only slut in the room!!!

I guess I am just hoping that he can find it in him to just relax and try to enjoy the Holiday. I know that I am going to keep a smile on my face the entire night. This is a day for sharing… Sharing our food, our time, our conversations, our home etc with every one. As much as I am sure he would like my undivided attention that day, It just ant happening. I have a very busy day of cooking and entertaining to do and there just isn’t enough time in the day to make that happen. Now, if all goes well and he is able to control his emotions towards me and my industry friends, then he and I are scheduled to head out to his parents for the weekend. Thanks Giving number two is at his moms Friday night. Now, this is a time I will be able to devote all of my attention to him because I wont be hosting, I just hope we make it that far. ooo, goodness, now I am babbling about some thing you all probably care nothing about. hehe sry, guess I am just worried thats all. Either way, it is going to be a BLAST here Thursday so I really do hope you all stop in to check it out, there will be lots of fun games we will play and food that will be cooked… NAKED But no matter what you do, I hope you have a happy and safe holiday. Now it is time to start making a grocery list for all the fun stuff I plain on making Hehe CANT WAIT

SNOWBOARDING

Well it was a long year! I mean wow!!! I feel like I lived a million life times in just these past few months alone. There was a lot of growing and expanding and a shit tone of sex along the way. I am not saying it is over just yet, but I can already feel it winding down. As much as I like the summer and chilling out by the pool, parties at the houses in the hills, and days at the beach followed by a BBQ at a friends. BUT!! I am SO EXCITED about hitting the mountains with my new board. I mean every time I look at the mountains in the distance that is all I can think of. There is something so empowering about sliding down the side of a snow covered sky scraping mountain with the chilled wind hitting your face. Last year I hit about 6 different resorts all across the US so my goal this year os to visit more I am about to check out boards tonight right after I book flights for the holidays. Ill let you all know what I find that I like. This year should be interesting because I will be bringing Superman with me to all my little adventures, but maybe this will be a good thing. Last year on my first trip I got a concussion and had to acquire a helmet Plus I think It wold be nice to have a partner in crime that I can snuggle up with by the fires or in the cold. Plus I really cant cant wait to see my family again. I guess I may be getting a little ahead of myself thinking about all this, I still have a LOT of work to do before I even get to Thanksgiving. I guess that is what happens when this time of year comes around. SNOWBOARDING BABY!!!!

NEW TOYS

sry for the lack of post, I have not had internet hooked up due to new TV’s and hard drives. I would like to tell you that I am going to have time to post in the morning, but I plain on getting up early and heading to the gym. I have to be on set at noon and I have a few errands I have to squeeze in as well. After work tmw I will be helping my friend move… They are remodeling the building so thank god it is only a few doors down, But then I am working the next day too so I will be needing rest. I am thinking sometime when I am on set or some time after work on wed I will be able to catch you all up on whats been up and all the things I have plained for the future. I hope you are all well, I am off to bed now, It was a long day today and I am ready for some rest!

11*11*11 A LUCKY NEW START

Last night was a full moon. I have the worst luck on the full moon!!! last night was the night I talked to Mo in efforts to end a bond that is 8 years strong. 8 years, wow… crazy to think about, I remember the first day I met him. He and I have been playing phone tag for a few days and it was eating me up inside the whole time, but it had to be done. It was by far the hardest thing and saddest thing I have ever had to do and that leaves me no surprise it was a full moon!!! I was in the middle of driving home from work when he called and as much as I didn’t want to answer then, I was afraid I wouldn’t reach him by the time I got home, so I picked up. Immediately I started crying… Weird, because I haven’t really cried in YEARS until I started dealing whit this whole thing so needless to say I had to pull over. As I sat in a mall parking lot in my car I cried so many tears with every word it took me to explain what was happening. I was so hysterical that I could barley speak the words necessary to tell him how much I loved him and he will always be very special to me. He listened to what I had to say and told me that he loved me as much now as he ever had. He told me to calm down and then he began to explain to me his side of the story. He told me that he has know for years that this would happen and that he prepared for it then. He told me that he will always be there for me and he will always love me. He explained that if things don’t work out that he might still be there waiting just as he has for years. This made me cry harder because he is so wonderful about the whole thing. He asked me if I am happy and if Superman treats me well. I told him that he will never be replaced in any way and he will always have a place in my heart, but yes… he treats me like a princess. He told me that as long as I am happy and safe, he is happy too.

Today is 11*11*11, the ultimate good luck day of the century, and a lucky day it has been!!!! in fact it is precisely 11~11~11 11:11.11 at this very moment as I write this. Superman came by and fucked me into a whole new mind set!!!… twice :) His comforting hugs were his way of assuring that I am on a new path that I have not yet traveled. This may sound funny, but for the first time in my life I feel like I am independent. Weird, because I have been out in this world on my own since the day I moved in with mo. I feel like this is the first day of a Lucky New Start for me. I feel lucky to have so many great people in my life. I feel lucky for my fans and all the support, lucky for my family and there unconditional love… I feel lucky for so many thing, but most of all I am feeling lucky for Superman. Without him this would not be happening and in my opinion, there couldn’t be a better time for it… so yeah, I am a lil nervous about all this unknown, but I am equally excited to write the next part of my story. I can’t wait to express all this joy in my work for you all so you can see just how awesome I am feeling. I have a new lifestyle consisting of work outs, movie nights, occasional drinking, and minimal drugs (pot and mushrooms . I am with a whole new agency for the first time in two years and they are great! I have a guy in my life that treats me like a princess, and I am closer to my family and friends than I have been in years! YUP!!! Im one lucky chick for sure.

I wish all the same luck to all you reading this as well!

Okay, enough with all the sappy reflections, I gotta hit the gym so I can maintain my cardo…. Superman is an animal in bed and I struggle keeping up some times

THIS WILL BRING ME TO TEARS

WELL SHIT! that is the only way I know how to start this. I am in one of the worst situations I could have ever imagined being in when it comes to my Love for Mo. He has been my number one for so long… when I was sad I would turn to him for help. When I was happy I would share that with him. If I was just chilling doing me, I would share that with him too, I mean he has been my everything when it comes to relationships. Okay, yeah it was a fucked up relationship being that we saw each other like twice maybe three times a year, we had two separate lives, and we were both banging other people… But it worked! We talked almost every day, we had freedom to do what we wanted and just the simple fact that we have been together since I was 16 years old. We have been through so much, there is just so much history between us. From the drama in our relationship when I lived at home, to me moving away for school in Atlanta, to me being in Porn… he has stuck with me through all of it. Without any hesitation too! He has always encouraged me to do what I dream of doing and has not once held me back from anything, ever! When I was younger I told him that I was like his butterfly that he needed to let go of so he can watch me fly back to him one day. We predicted that by the time I was 27 or so I would be done playing around and I would be back home to finish where we left off. I knew that there were so many mistakes we both needed to make, lessons we both needed to learn in order for us to be ready for a lasting relationship, so I left

I left home with every intention of coming back one day. I always envisioned myself being his for ever and no one else really having the power to take his place. I thought if I could just go out into the world and explore for a while that I would be right back. I just needed time and space to grow up and become the girl I was going to be and then we could resume the relationship. I had no idea that my views on ever making it back would change so much. I have learned about myself that I will never be living in Louisville ever again. I mean not for a LONG LONG while. There is still so much out in the world I have yet to see and do, that I just know it will take longer than 27 to fit it all in. He has NO plains of ever leaving Louisville, not even to start something new with me somewhere else. We have argued about it and every time it comes back to me being the one who left in search for something. I can help it!!! Like I told you, I have a gypsy soul and I was made for moving around. I also have learned that I am a very affectionate girl and given the right moment and person, I am really good at sharing that affection and I like sharing my affection. Recently I have been hanging with this new guy, Superman, and I have been sharing my affectionate side with him quite a bit. So much that he has found his way to unlocking a lot of doors and tearing down a lot of walls I built to protect myself. What started as a guy I liked has turned into a whole other story and it happen fast, maybe a lil too fast, but you can’t help how these things go. It has gotten to the point where I am starting to question my Love for Mo… Is it everlasting lovers we were meant to be? or is it Long lasting loving best friends that we ever were to start with? The passion we once had is gone, the spark has been gone ever since the day I left for school when I was 19, but He has been there for me as a best friend and occasional lover ever since then too. It was comfortable, and it was worn in… and it fit! But I have grown. Superman has allowed me to grow way faster and bigger and better than I thought I was ever capable of doing. Now the comfort I had in Mo and the Love seems so minuscule to what is happening to me now.

This will bring me to tears no doubt… I am tearing up now just thinking about it and I realize that we were both so young when we made these promises. How were we supposed to know things were going to be so different? We made every per caution to avoid getting tired of each other, so we split and maybe we split too far. I think I moved so big this time that I cant come back. It is time for me to move on and for him to do the same. It is inevitable that I am not coming home to finish the story any time soon and it is not fair for him to have to wait. He is such a great guy and deserves batter than that and I do too. We have grown so far apart and we want so many different things that it is irresponsible to continue on this path . I have found someone who is influencing my decision no doubt, but it had to happen at some point. At least by doing this now there is still time for the both of us to find what is right for our true wants. He needs a local girl that is independent, and I need a man to be here for me. I don’t blame him for not being able to provide this for me, I blame myself for being selfish and unobtainable. I have known ever since I was a little girl that life in Louisville was not for me, so I shouldn’t be so shocked. It really is sad and it really hurts inside. The feeling of loosing someone who has been my everything for so long is just crazy.

It is hard to find the time to say something you know is going to change everything. Even more difficult is finding the right way to say it. I have been tormenting myself over this for a few days now. I can never get passed my tears to pick up the phone to make that phone call. I am having a hard time being strong enough to do the right thing and that sucks. Out of all the craziness that has been my life ever since that day I left home, Mo has been the only constant and that is no more after this phone call. I feel like I am loosing my training wheels as a child. Like my umbilical chord is being cut and it is time for me to start depending on myself. I am confident I will figure it all out, I just have to think about it a lil bit more. Writing this has shaken me and my keyboard is now all wet so I am going to go. Maybe the gym and a massage will help me calm down and get this all worked out. Wish me luck!

A TREAT

so here are some pictures I took for my new agency… I am not sure that these are a set you all would get to see, so I grabbed a few to give to you all. I hope you like…. I have been doing some re sculpting in the gym so this is the latest look.