CRYSTAL CLEAR

There is a man in my life that I have know for a verrrrrry long time now. He and I go way back to the time I was in High School! I would consider  him to be one of the closest men to me in my entire life….. Tonight he called me and he really didn’t have much to say. I am really not sure why exactly he called me, but he did. I told him I would be coming home soon and he was excited at first and then kinda just drifted from the subject all together. I didn’t really think too much of it at first, but then the conversation continued. I was telling him how I felt about something and he gave me the most vague response in the world, and I still didn’t think anything of it. He and I have such and interesting history, that I would never in a million years think anything was up… Our conversation continued and I could tell that his head wasn’t in the convo at all. I am not one to call any one out on anything so I just pretended like I couldn’t tell anything was up… As I continued with the information he asked me for, he just drifted off into what ever was happening quietly around him, then all of a sudden he hung up!  In a matter of seconds, I received a text message saying “bye”.Now, not only  am I in just total awe, but now I am also stuck with a very large amount of his things at my place. I am not ever going to convince anyone to like or want to like me for any reason…. If you don’t want to be my friend, than I don’t want you as a friend. I would never try to convince anyone to just “put up” with me. I am a super genuine female and I could never tolerate a fake friendship. I am not really sure how this will all work out in the end, but it is now crystal clear that I will NOT be seeing him when I go home. I guess a part of growing up is figuring out the true definition of a friend and a simple acquaintance. I am in the process of learning the hard way at the moment. I am not in love with the situation, but I am excited to learn from it! I see several changes to my lifestyle after this. wow…. way super burned by my best friend. Awesome full moon this was! Good night to all and I hope tomorrow will be a better day…. :/