Browsing all articles from September, 2011.
FOUR PLAY
I am an outrageously sexual being in every way… I love sex and everything about it but some times the sexist things are totally not sex related…. The ability to hold an interesting conversation is a huge turn on for me and one of the best forms of four play. I like the feeling when I stare into a mans eyes as he is telling me a story and they get uncomfortable. The feeling of vulnerability and uncertainty makes my body do all kinds of fun things. I get this feeling in the middle of my tummy kinda like butterflies, my hands get numb, I instantly get this girly smile on my face and I get week in my knees. I would have to say its kind of like a hight that I get. Funny how that work out…
PLAYING GIRLFRIEND
I have a very important friend of mine staying with me tonight. This man means the world to me and being around him turns me into this whole other person. I turn into this perfect angel. I don’t do this to try to put on a front or anything… I mean its really ind of weird. When I am around this guy I don’t even behave the same. There is something about him that tames me. HAHA Who would have thought, A MAN that can tame me! I don’t have the desire to go out and mingle with strangers, I don’t care to see any of the guys in my phone, its like this man just totally takes over my everything when he is around. It turns me on so much that he knows everything about me and all my hot spots. I have had so much sex over the last few days that I am in a permanent good mood. I love playing girlfriend with this guy…. he understands that I am his when he is here, but as soon as he goes home, it is back to my old ways.
IT WAS JUST WHAT I NEEDED
This weekend I went to Virginia to be in my sisters wedding. I was one of her brides mades as she married a man named Louis. It was on a navel base in front of the Atlantic Ocean. This is the first wedding that I have ever been in. She had me and all of my other sisters in these olive and ivery dresses that looked great against the beautiful back droop of the ocean. All of my brothers were there too…. It was just what I needed. I got to spend time with my family for the first time in several months, including my twin brother. This weekend really brought all of us together in the most genuine way. My sister Anna looked so amazing in her gown…. she was glowing all day long. At the reception one of my brothers announced that he too was going to be getting married in October… His wedding will be in Seattle at there local church. I really am so excited not only for the two wedding parties, but also another great chance to get all of us siblings in the same room at the same time. I am now back in L.A. and my best friend from home is here to stay with me for the week. We both landed at LAX air port today 10 min apart from each other. Today was his birthday and all he wanted to do was spend it with me. He is now passed out due to too much Jager 
but tomorrow is another day, and we will be celebrating all week long. I am about to pass out too because I have to work early in the morning… Night to all kiss kiss…. Tmw is TUESDAY!
MY BIG WEEKEND
I have one more scene to do tomorrow and then I am off to Norfolk, VA for my first time ever. My oldest sister (who I have met once at my fathers funeral) is getting married . My twin brother is even driving from Kentucky for the event. This will be the first time he will be meeting any of them: brothers, sisters, uncles, grand parents… This should be pretty exciting! I have met all of my brothers and sisters and extended family at least and loved all of them instantly. I can already tell that my brother will find his new relatives to very interesting and different from us entirely. Also, I haven’t seen my twin for quite a few months now, so it will be nice to hang with him for a few days. I will be bringing lots of pot with me to help him deal with all the craziness of meeting the family and a wedding all at the same time. I on the other hand will be in the wedding! I am a brides made:) This will be the firs time I have ever been in a wedding… I haven even attended many weddings now that I think about it. Well, either way, I am very excited about the whole thing and cant wait for my midnight flight tomorrow night. I am going to use this weekend as a reality check of sorts… I have been in this weird funk for a few weeks now and I am sure this will help. I am sure the fact that all the court shit I finally wrapped up this morning will help too. All my bills are paid, and I even picked up a few new things myself (Evo 4g Phone) for my fresh start. Well I am off to bed now because I need plenty of sleep for my big weekend with the fam. Night to all…. kiss kiss
UNINTENTIONAL ANAL
So this is something at happens to every girl who is sexually active sooner or later. My instance could have been a lot worse so I am thankful that it wasn’t that bad…. In the middle of yesterdays scene I was in the missionary position on this not so stable stool getting pounded by my male talent. It was all going so well until the chair moved back a solid 3 inches from him thrusting into me. Three inches is a big space when we are talking about a ladies southern parts, if you know what I mean. I was shoved forward, his cock came out of my pussy, the chair rocked back and his cock went right into my ass. I am not an anal girl, I mean, I have been practicing, but I was no where ready for that! His cock was so big and it hurt so bad! I can honestly say that it wasn’t his fault though. I know most guys do that just for kicks, but this was unintentional anal action. I made the most horrific sound, but because we were shooting on the Red Eye camera, I couldn’t exactly stop the scene. I remember making the noise, moving on immediately and pretending I was fine as I let the pain set in. We were going so hard and so fast..wow… I am proud to say I made it through the scene and I am still going to keep practicing. I can still feel discomfort from the whole thing, but I am sure I will be just fine soon.
INTENTIONAL PAIN
It is a funny thing being a Leo born on the 6th… In books they say “We are particularly drawn to happenings of a very unique or extraordinary sort”…. The more crazy experiences I manage to get involved in, the more I understand what this statement means. All my life I have had the urge to see new things, meet new people, and above all try new things. I have been: sky diving, dog sledding, snow boarding, white water rafting, mountain climbing, and many other crazy activities, But none as “Extraordinary” as SEX. As a Leo I am also described as “One having a great need for love and all sorts of sensual and sexual expressions”, and honestly I couldn’t agree more! When I started in this business I wasn’t t very aware of my sexual needs and the different ways to express them. Not until I found Kink.com that is!!!!! This place ties both of my previous quotes together perfectly. Kink is a place I go to get tied up and fucked… Fucked real HARD. I mean, they have whips, chains, machines, massive dildos and devices I don’t even know the names of, and there not afraid to use them. It is such a painful but crazy pleasant experience. I believe that it is the out line of these two qualities that make me occasionally turn to intentional pain as a form of sexual expression. When I am put in a “kink” situation, its like I can let go of all the things that are on my mind and all of my stress just disappears. I think my mind and body go through so many sensations and such drastic mood swings that all the other distractions are just eliminated by the time it is all over. The reason I bring this up is because I think it is time for me to have anther dose of a “Kink” situation. I have been a little besides myself lately and I cant figure out why. I am hoping to use the extraordinary sexual happenings and intentional pain as a therapeutic tool to help snap me back into my normal self.
JAGER AND SEX EVERYTHING
Over the past few week I have had so much Jager and sex everything it was crazy…. I mean it was all at work, but at least it was something. There was even one point where I had taken so much BIG cock that my insides were sore. Luckily I had yesterday and today off so I could recover…. Yesterday was an amazingly relaxing day for me. My room mate and I went out on a friends yacht and was naked in the sun all day. We took a canoe to the Joes Crab Shack that was on the water and had more Jager shots. Some how I managed to loose my wallet with my ID’s and Debit card in it. I was going to head out to the club later that night, but since I didn’t have an ID I decided to stay home and watch movies. Today I am going to head to the mall to get some new wardrobe options for work and stop in at the spa to get some kinks worked out. My nails need to be done so bad and I have to get new nipple rings again. I plain on picking up Pho on the way home along with a few more movies and taking it easy today. My Sunday Funday activities are going to be very calm.
INTOXICATING AMOUNTS OF SEX
This has been a very crazy sex week for me. I had so much sex at work over the past few days that I haven’t even had time for a personal life. I have had lesbian sex, boy girl sex, three way sex, and even some crazy shit that you’ll just have to wait to see sex. Im not kidding when I say I have had intoxicating amounts of sex. I have been walking around with this constant pep in my step all week long. I have stocked up on happiness with all this sex to last me for a year. Excess happiness is a wonderful side affect of my job! My work week is all wrapped up for a few days, so I plain on stocking up on energy and strength to do it all over again next week. I am home now on y couch just recharging for a minute and then its time to go mingle. I am on a mission to find a cute guy that isn’t intimidated by me that I can hang with…… wish me luck!
IT WAS JUST WHAT I NEEDED
This morning I woke up with a lil less faith in men that usual…. I had a really awful date last night and I got stood up the night before by a guy as well. I haven’t had a really good record lately when it comes to men and dating. Normally when I go through dry spells like this, I turn to women as companions. My last girl friend hurt me so bad that I dare not do that again any time soon. I am sure that if I weren’t so picky I wouldn’t be having this problem, but it is what it is. This evening after work I decided to catch up with a good friend of mine at his bar. I must say that going there was the best decision I have had in a long time. I mean, not only was the Jager free, but he was so refreshing to be around. I mean I know the guy wants to sleep with me, but he doesn’t make it #1 priority when we hang out. He is actually one of the VERY few people that I consistently hang out with. Now don’t get me wrong, we have slept together in the past and Im sure we will one day in the future too. I just like that I can be myself 100% of the time around him. I don’t feel like he judges me, or expects anything from me…. It was just what I needed! A night of being down to earth not trying to impress any one, just chillin! I wish I cold have more friends like him; People I can trust and be comfortable around no mater what….. I guess L.A. is the wrong place to live if you are looking for genuine friends like that! I love living here because of the weed and the weather, but sometimes the people kinda suck! At least I have a few good friends here, and that makes it all worth while! Good night! kiss kiss for now, and I will be back with you tmw!
BLOW JOB ADVICE
People ask me all the time about my blow jobs ad how I learned how to do what I do. I always tell them the same thing, I LOVE to suck dick and that is what makes it so good. I wouldn’t say I have a single technique or that there is something I do different than most people, I just genuinely enjoy making men feel good. I totally zone out of the real world and I create my own for the activity. I pay attention to the blood flow in the cock when I do certain things and I play off those reactions. My best advice is to start slow! Get the cock nice and hard before you put the whole thing in your mouth, be sure to use your hands, and don’t forget the balls! I like to work up a lot of spit so it stays slippery and wet. There is no “cute” way to suck dick, so for get about it and just get in there! The occasional eye contact is always good along with rubbing your self too. Learn to tolerate the taste of cum…. I know its not the best taste in the world, but swallowing is like the cherry on top! The most important thing is that you enjoy it! There is no way the man can enjoy it if your not!
