Browsing all articles from September, 2011.

I’M HAVING A HARD TIME GETTING TURNED ON!

I don’t want to say that I am too stressed, but I am defiantly feeling the pressure. Lately I have bee so distracted in my personal life that I been having a hard time getting turned on. I Thought it was just because I haven’t had any cock in over a week, but today I had my chance to get my fill and I still couldn’t get into it. I Have tried several different things over the past week…. I cooked dinner for a guy I used to sleep with last night, we watched a movie, he was rubbing me for a bit, but I couldn’t get my head in the game. I got a lil turned on, but he didnt take it to the next level, so I had him leave early with out having sex. I have had several chances to go out on several dates and I have turned them all down. Im not sure what’s up, but it seems as if something is missing. I am usually very easily excitable girl when it comes to sex, but lately I have been lacking the urge completely! I not sure if my state of mind is from stress Ive been dealing with or if it is just my ADD kicking in but I don’t like it. I am supposed  to go to this really cute mans house tonight and hang in the hot tub, drink wine and smoke, but I already know how it is all going to turn out…. we drink, we smoke, we fuck, sudden loss of interest  in each other, I leave, and we text in a week or so…. That just doesn’t seem like much fun for tonight. Usually its my favorite thing to do, but im just not feeling it any more! Its times like these that I wish I had a very wise older, much older friend to turn to and ask advice on what is happening. Maybe I am growing up, maybe I am sad, maybe I am too happy… who knows!  I just want to figure it all out soon so I can get back to my usual sexual self.

I HAVENT SLEPT WITH A MAN IN OVER A WEEK

The last time I slept with a man was about a week and a day ago…. I am not really sure how I feel about this….  I have been having tons of sex in many ways but I havent slept with a man in over a week, only girls! Kissing scenes, straight sex scenes, foot fetish scenes, orgy scenes, I mean the list goes on, but only girls! Dont get me wrong, it has been an amazing week sleeping with so many girls, but I think I miss the cock! Tomorrow I will have the chance to change all that because I have a Boy girl scene with Playboy (the company, not my friend!). We get to get down and super dirty, I cant hardly wait! Im off to bed now so I can soon be headed to get me some internal action. Night!

STRANGE HALO AROUND THE MOON

Today started out at around 5:30 am. I woke up and went straight to the kitchen to start my egg, sausage and cheese casserole for the 14 person crew I would be working with today. After all my years working with female performers, I know the secret to keeping them happy. I know how important it is for them to not be hungry. Once one of them starts talking about food then they all get hungry. I learned my lesson yesterday when we were simply getting our nails painted. I knew today would be much longer and I didn’t want to lose a girl out of hunger mid way through the day. I decided to get up this morning at 5:30 in the morning to start my 14 person casserole. I needed to get up in time to cook the food and then get in the shower and prepare my own hair and make up for the day. I was told to show up in a very un resistible fucakable look. I did my best in my own style as I saw fit. We all gathered (me and 9 other girls) for a day of feet games. I picked a Twitter friend who answered my personal queston first to receive every prize I won. In the end it turned out that I was the ultimate winner of the entire day. My fan will receive a lot of gifts soon! I then went to my local bar and took a shot, then to the bank, then shopping for lots n cute tings. I then went  home to do laundry, then took a shower, then cleaned my room, then got ready and then went to hollywood. We started at Hyde and was ready to move on by 12:00. We dropped my room mate off at home and then headed to aHarppers. Me and Playboy stayed till last call and then dipped. We came to my house and smoked and made plains for tomorrow. We parted ways till tmw morn. I am now in bed ready to masturbate. good night to all and a kiss kiss for now!

GOOD, GREAT, AND GOING TO GET BETTER!

So today is Tuesday night… I have had a super long day and its been awesome 100% of the way until now! I woke up around 5:30 and started on breakfast to serve to a crew of about 14 people. I showered, lotioned up, put my pretty face on, and then headed to set. I played feet games all morning with 9 other girls and ended up winning in the final games. After that we all had a big orgy that was crazy fun! After that I stopped at my local bar for a few shots, went to the bank, went shopping, then to grab Pho999. I came home and cleaned all my cloths and room and now im ready to shower again. It is Tuesday again and I’m ready to head out. I must say, I am a little disappointed in a few people that I know… I am getting all the most bull shit excuses on why they cant chill tonight. Im at the point where I’m going on my own escapade tonight. I am all about meeting new friends and cant wait to rock a new dress. I hope you all had as awesome of a Tuesday as I did, but its shower time. Kiss kiss to all!

BLOG ON MY KNOB

The title is a shout out to a good friend! Cheers to you Luke.

I have to apologize in advanced for this blog… I am just not in the mood to write about anything interesting tonight. I had a great day at work, fun drinking with my friends, and more fun at oceans tonight. I did all the same things I usually do when I am chilling with these friends. Jager, hookah, and joints… I even met up with some old friends from Louisville and had some shots. For some reason after my eventful day I have noting to really say. I wonder if it is because I have been doing the same thing all weekend long….? I know that I haven’t had sex since last Thursday night when I went out on a date with that super cute Hollywood guy.. I did masturbate a lot, but its just not the same. I am definitely going to have to do something about this problem by tomorrow night. I can tell that I am not as up beat as I usually am, and not nearly as fun. Its crazy how sex can make or break a person…. I think I am at the breaking point and thats not a good thing. I promise I am going to make it a personal mission to get laid tomorrow! After that I will be right back to my old chipper self. Kiss Kiss and good night for now!

IM A SNUGGLER

So I have this amazingly huge bed that is all feathers everything! I have Egyptian cotton sheets and more pillows than you can imaging on one bed. When I go to bed I position myself in the very center and then line the pillows next to me on both sides. I love being in tight places even when I sleep. It makes me feel safe and it helps me sleep more sound. It has been a long time since I have slept next to some one! Even with my one night stands and all my fuck buddies, I never stay long enough to snuggle! I was going to have a friend over this evening to watch movies, fuck and then stay and hold mw all night long… At the last minute I thought about it and changed my mind. I am a snuggler who doesn’t like to snuggle with people…  is that weird? Maybe I am just laying next to the wrong people lately!

MY SUPER POWERS

This is my silly thought of the week.

I have this crazy super power that sometimes gets me into trouble! I was born with this power and there is nothing I can do to control it. It a great power to have and I would never give it up for anything! This exact power exists in a lot of people all over the world and it is as equally powerful in all of us. I never really knew how strong this power was until I was at Dria’s pool party on saturday!  It was just like any other pool party these days… loud music, the sexiest of the sexy, lots of drugs, lots of alcohol, and an amazing view of the city… I was hanging in my cabana all day drinking jager and chillin with my friends just dancing the Saturday away. The next thing I know, I am by the pool dancing with some random girls and my suit snaps open from the back. the clasp that holds my top on slipped out of place and made the entire top come off.  Now, I know I am one hell of a dancer and I always knew that I drew a few peoples attention, but I had no idea that my super power had it like this! My super power is being a Leo! By nature science says that people born as a Leo are: generous,have  big personalties, the center of attention, popular and always noticed when in the room. It took a mater of seconds before EVERYONE at the pool party was clapping. These people had to be watching me long before my top snapped in order to actually see it go down!  Im confident it is because of my super power that I was such a spectacle.! heehee…

PARALYZED WITH ONE TOUCH

There is this one spot on my back that can send me into this totally awkward and immediate paralyzation. Usually I have to be in a certain mind frame for my body to all this to happen i.e. I cant be in boss mode, I have to be feeling playful in order to be venerable to this spot…. with that being said,  Yesterday that spot got me in the middle of a scene! I was working with Nick Manning and he is a funny character to work with any way! The man spurts out the most random words and phrases in his scene. I was already trying not to laugh any way!!!! I was bent over in doggie and he was being silly and suddenly  he reached down, to hold me down, he touched that spot. It only takes pressure from ONE finger in the middle of my back, just underneath my shoulder blades, and I have no chance!! It forced me to sit straight up and arch my back as much as I cold.  The longer he kept his hand there the more I melted and fell to the floor. It was the funniest thing…. I mean we  were mid scene!!  One sec Im in doggie, then instantly standing and then quickly squirming to the ground. When he finally let go I was already on the floor in this uncontrollable laugh. The entire crew around us were all standing over me to make sure everything was okay. No one understood what was going on, it all happen so quickly. I was laughing so hard it made me cry, so that made things even more confusing. When I was able to get feeling back in my body I stood up and explained to every one what happen and they were all  like…. o..kay….????  Now, once that spot gets sensitive it takes for every to get back to normal. When we tried to resume the scene, we went back into doggie and he grazed the spot again! I just started laughing again and crazy arched rolled over on the bed. We actually had to break for five minutes to let my back not be so sensitive and then we were able to finish the scene. It really is like a control switch on my body that can instantly paralyze me with one touch.

LET THE GOOD TIMES ROLL

The first cassette tape I ever had was “The Cars”. I love the tape! I listened to it every day when I was a child. The song “let the good time roll” was my favorite song on the entire album. I could probably sing the lyrics to the entire song to this day if I had to! I listened to this song when I was way young and it wouldn’t be until now (my 20′s) that I would actually understand what the song meant. Its funny because, I have been listening to this song for as long as I can remember. I am just now experiencing what the lyrics are saying… I recently got involved in a wonderful thing that didnt belong to me. It is a shame that this wonderful thing wasn’t mine, I would have held on so tight to it nd never let it go. The wonderful thing unknowingly belonged to some one else and I had no right to interfere. She contacted me and told me to back off, so I did. It was a hard thing to let go of because it was the closest thing to perfect I have ever found. The good times!!!!!!! I am still a young girl and I have a lot of life to live. It wont be until another 5 or 6 years until I think about settling down. I am preparing my mind and my heart now for the everlasting love to come! Dont get me wrong, I live the single life better than any one else you know, but I am sure one day it will all come down to one love. I hope all of you that already have that one love in your life  roll over to he or she and hold them tight, for you have something that is priceless in your arms already!  I am having so much fun customizing my “soul mate wish list” that I get ahead of myself sometimes! I know that it is going to take one hell of a man to hold me down and it is goingto take one hell of a journey to fing him or her.  I have decided to let the good time roll until he or she comes along! You can never rush a great thing and thats one rule I don’t intend to break!!!! Patients is a virtue and time is on my side. Night!!!!

CRAZY INTENSE DREAM

I woke up this morning in such a frenzy! Usually when I sleep I have very intense dreams that I can remember clear as day… My doctor tells me that due to my dream activity, I never really get a great nights rest. I can remember a lot about most of my dreams on a regular basis when I wake up. Its super cool because sometimes they are great dreams that I wish were real! Other times they are just really bad dreams that have me feeling indifferent and scared . Last night I had one of those really bad dreams! I woke up sad, scared, and feeling lonely in my own bed. I am not really sure how to interpret what my dream is supposed to mean and why they are so emotionally effective. I  wish there were a definite science that could explain why certain images are triggered in our sleep. Maybe they really are just a collection of images, or maybe they are our minds subconscious trying to tell us something….!!..???