DIRE NEED

I am so horny it isn’t even funny any more!!!! Last night I dreamt of masturbating  in every dream I had. The funny thing is I am sleeping in the same bed as a man that is 100% capable of fucking….. The only thing is that I used to sleep with this guy last year and I kinda developed and emotional tie to the guy….. I have decided I would rather torture my self sexually than torture myself emotionally. This is like being in between a rock and a hard place and I have four more days of this. It will officially be the longest I have EVER been without sex since I was 15…. I am not sure if this is an accomplishment or if it is just sad, wither way the shits real!