BECOMING THE INEVITABLE

So I know that I am a female and all but sometimes I have the mindset as a man….. This trip to Texas I tried the whole time to play it so cool with this guy that I slept with all of last year. I have never been depressed before in my life until I met this guy! I am not really sure what it was that I like about him, but it could have been the lack of commitment that it took in order to keep him, or it could have been the different kind of attention he required in order to keep him!!! Either way we haven’t talked for a year straight and now I am in the position to spend every night in a bed sleeping next to him! It has been the hardest thing to not have sex with him through this tortuous week.  As I have stated before I would rather torture myself sexually rather than torture myself emotionally! Either way, after spending so much time whit this guy I had no choice rather than to have sex with him! I got so horny that I sir came to the one man that has ever hurt me. I am not sure who this makes me as a person but I do know that I will be spending the next few days trying to figure it out! Good night for now! I have another long day a head of me! Kiss kiss for now! c ya tmw!